ME

 

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Here is a recent picture of me holding my “Granddaughter”.  However, there is one problem here.  She is NOT my real Granddaughter.

The Image above is me holding Ciecela “CC” as we call her.  She is such a sweet little Lady and is the Daughter of a good friend of ours.  Christine S. is her Mother and has always treated me as CC’s Grandfather, because she knows that having a real Grand Child I will never see.  Every time I see CC she come’s running to me just like a real Grandchild.  I truly do appreciate this, but there is still something missing.  It’s not part of me and never will be.  I wish it was.

I don’t get to see CC all that much, but when I do she is always enjoyable to be around.  I think that she is about 5 yrs. old, but not sure.  She is a typical little girl that loves to play with her toys and dolls.  She get’s so much.  Santa is always so good to her.

The reason I will never see a “real Granddaughter” is that my real Daughter and I don’t get along very well.  Michelle is 41 now, and I don’t ever get to see her.  She has never married.  I wish so bad that I could see Michelle.  I wish so bad that it hurts me all the time.  It’s a long long story why I never see Michelle and way to much to Post here.  I will say that I have made some stupid mistakes in my Life and wish that I could go back in time to change them.  That will never happen and I know it.

Christmas time is really a bad time for me.  I miss my Daughter more around that time of the year than any other.  There is a reason why, but again to long to Post here.  For many years I have sat alone when no one is around and cried.  I still do it, but not as much as before.  I will never get used to it.  She is part of me and always will be.

They tell me “what goes around will come around”.  Well, I don’t know about that.  I’m also told that Miracles do happen.  Don’t know about that either.  I’ve been waiting for one all these years.  Maybe, just maybe I will see the Daughter that I helped bring into this world before I die.

Be Well, my Followers

Les

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  • I am sorry to hear that you and your daughter don’t get along. Don’t ever say that CC is not your real granddaughter, though. To her you might be as real a grandfather as they come. I grew up with only one grandmother. My grandfathers both died before I was born, and my paternal grandmother died when I was very young (I really don’t remember her). When I was little, I lived next door to a very nice older man and woman. They were real grandparents to me in every sense of the word.

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